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| why live life if we're bound to die
my Armageddon is coming and I'm gonna fry
I'm lookin to the end so i can plan my present
i wanna make sure my living status is fuckin pleasant
cuz if it aint i dun want this fucking deal
if its sad put that iron in my head and serve a bloody meal
i smoke as much weed as fuckin b-real
thats happiness in its greatest ideal
i can smoke till i drop and rise in vain
rise then spark a blunt till i go insane
this is my only form of joy
rollin a joint and making it my fuckin toy
this joy was gone so fast,
now it''s nothing but a figment of my past
fuck those administrative bastards who think they know whats up
they dont know the deal and im gonna tell em to shut the fuck up
grow up, step up, back up, or else they best drop to the floor
cuz if not theyll be going through the front door
dont ever take the holy buddah away from me
if that happens i know im gonna hafta go on a shooting spree
take you away to the morgue
post ur blown off head on some dot org
show the whole world what happens when u hold us bak
we cant and wont stop until we get addicted to smack
its not ur problem so dont worry about me
im nothing but a scholar and a lovin druggie
and im down with that and i think its phat
if u dont believe me just listen im not done with this rap
pot heads of the world unite
wherever we are we kick bak and ignite
we roll as one anywhere we go
step left and right dodging anything they throw
so why try to stop us when we're gunning
we're aiming to be swiftly fuckin cunning
we don't mean to be a burden on society
we mean to be a burden on our own reality
if u say smoking is bad just fuck off
just hit this shit and go jerk off
u'll understand the sensation of busting a nut
when ur high as fuck and ur dealer gives u a pay cut
the smile on ur face will get so big
its the face u get when a bitch is suckin on ur twig
thats the joy i'm talking about
it takes u down different routes
opens up a new world for u to play in
like when american idol was won by clay akin
he went anywhere he ever wanted to go
release ur imagination take u to a game show
ur bound to win thats no contest
all of the rest are just second best
so spark that joint up to a thousand degrees
its time to show u my expretise | | |
| to whom it may concern,
i will be home soon. give me exactly 20 days and i will be back. if u read this blog and want to hang out when i get back and think i dont have your number, email me or leave me a comment. hope to hear from some. | | |
| today is my birthday. finally i turned 16. should i be happy? maybe. maybe not. people usually feel happy on their birthdays. i dont. what is there to be happy about? all i see are pictures of my friends having fun and im not there and i cry. i see smiles on their faces and i smile because i can see their happiness, but i cant help but cry thinking why cant i be there. i never wanted this life. doesnt seem worth it. why does life have to be a bitch? why cant it work out? what did i do? some may think im a whining bitch, but ask anyone who has left taiwan. they all will say life sucks when u leave. well those who truly embrassed it. nothing in the world is like taiwan. i am a fortunate person. i virtually have things i would never need. everything i have is meaningless without taiwan. i can have things i dont need, but when i need one thing, its impossible to grasp, to have. i dont know. im lost. i wish i had my boys to hang out with. i wish i had true friends next to me. i dont. im alone in this world. fuck. life is disappointment and it sucks. | | |
| todayi talked to my boy alex. haha havent spoken to that man in forever. havent seen him in almost a whole year. he just got back from Kenya and showed me some pics which are sick. I happy for him.- He found something he loves and hes sick at it. Reconnected with that fool. talked about old times. haha old times, fuckin memory lane. my greatest memories are with that man and sean. Haha one day, the three of us will reunite and it will be just like oldtimes.
My brothers
A while back haha we were pretty fucked, i miss you guys
10/27/05
this date is coming up soon. about to hit 16. it seems like yesterday i was in 6th grade. it seems like yesterday i was home. It seems like yesterday i was happy. Maybe when my b-day comes around, ill feel better. hopefully. speaking to alex definetely put a smile on my face. I wish everyone well back home. you all better be having fun, because when taiwan is finally taken away from u, and it will be, ur gonna want nothing else but it. cherish your moments there forever. Make memories last. taiwan is special so let it be. | | |
| I am lying in a hole
A hole filled with decisions
Decisions that determine my life
Is this hole a sign?
Am I stuck in a forever ditch of decisions?
Am I not truly happy?
Am I tired of making decisions?
The more and more I think about it, life is getting harder for me because of decisions
I’m lying in this hole looking out and wondering if the top brings me peace of mind, if the top brings me freedom
But if I reach the top somehow, what will be of my life?
Will my life be at a standstill or will I keep moving on?
As I sit here now writing this poem I’m still wondering what will be next?
What decision am I going to make?
Will it be simple or quite significant in my life?
Even now as I have good times with friends
I am lying in a hole
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